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"For those who shatter others from the inside out and cause heartache, will one day feel the pressure of being lonely and sad, and those who think dark will always be hiding within the shadows." -Eric Clapton


Ehh.
I feel like I'm always at a constant constant battle with myself.
I keep letting my emotions and anxiety take me over...
and with that my mind wanders to crazy places.
It's like this completely new person who brings out all my bad qualities comes and takes me over whenever I worry.
Seriously, what the hell is wrong with me?


And I keep thinking about all the people who have given up on me, when I should just let it go.
There gone, there's nothing I can do about that, and they sure as hell don't deserve my friendship when they fucking ditched me in the first place.
Idk, I just feel lonely, and when I do, I want them back for some reason.

I'm just tired of people giving up on me and ditching me.

God damn. I hate my anxiety. I'm tired of worrying so much, it's draining me out.

I don't know what this all is, but I know it sure as hell isn't the real me.