This blog is to give all of you a piece of my mind. This is mostly things I don't say or talk about because I don't think anyone's really interested. So I decided to make one of these fancy blogs for it. This blog will probably alot be changing with current thoughts and realizations. It's here for you to come & read, take advantage of it since I'm taking my sweet ass time just incase you guys feel like knowing.
-Taken from a horoscope: "Not everyone is as good a friend as you, and you need to understand that. The art of friendship is hard for some to master, so be patient with people who don't always know how to act. If someone flakes out on you, forgets an important date, or puts their needs ahead of yours, cut them some slack. You should still take the opportunity to set them straight and educate them about how to be a better relationship partner, but you also need to give them time to learn."
I never knew friendship was an art that you learned. I just always thought it was automatic. We're all still learning. Some need to learn more than others.
-"The era of cheap gas is over." Our economy is fucked (well, at least for now). Gas prices keep rising and with that, product prices rise. What about supply & demand? We're running out and our need of oil is high. We use it for almost everything.
And you know what else? There's not enough jobs as it is. The poor are growing, middle class is becoming a smaller percent, as the rich turn their heads. Gas affects us all. Businesses are losing. They can't afford to pay for delievery, so they raise prices. Since people don't have enough money, they shop even less. No ones buying, which means stores close. This also hurts the supply chain. Anyways, I know I'm not the only one with this in mind.
Gas is pretty much $4 here, and it shows no sign of stopping. Yep, as much as I hate to say it, no more joy rides. I'm tired of hearing there isnt enough money. Fuck recession. I miss the 90's.
We already have to pay off this generation's debt, and all the mistakes they've made (*cough*...president bush to be exact. haha), now we have this problem on our hands too. But our generation has a chance in finding out a solution. We can't miss out on this opportunity. Don't ignore it. I don't want my future kids to deal with it.
-"Find a person who loves you for exactlly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, whatever. The right persons still gonna think the sun shines out of your ass. That's the person worth sticking with."
I forget what movie that's from, but I found that quote to mean alot. I used to think I'd just go through life, moving from relationship to relationship, getting hurt everytime, and never finding that "right person" who really truely cares for me, but it turns out, I finally have. Man, I don't even know where to start with this. He's on my mind 24/7. I constantly think of how things would be if I never met him, and I woulden't be the same person I am today if it wasn't for him, and I owe him the biggest thanks for that. He saved me from everything bad and stupid in my past.
In the begining, I never would have thought I would get that close to him, and never in a million years would have thought I would fall in love with him. I've never been in love before, or even truely loved anyone as much as I love him. And sure, we hit tough spots every now and then, and disagree on some things, but that's normal, no one agrees on every little thing in life. He never gives up on me though, and he's the first person to actually stick with me through tough times.
I may not have known him for that long, but we've talked pretty much all day, everyday. He knows me better than anyone else now. He's also the only person other than family who I truely trust.
I constantly worry about him, and he knows it. I worry about some things that I know I shoulden't be worried about at all, but I can't help that, it's natural instinct. Now that I think of it though, I guess that's just another way of showing I really do care about him, and don't want anything to happen.
I truely love him though, weather he believe's me or not, I truely do, and I coulden't be any happier with him. :]
-Just something I've realized (I took this from what I've wrote in a journal while venting a while back, but it still has meaning now)...
It's weird how these last few weeks have made up for months worth of feeling so down and so negative about everything. That needs to stop. I need to clear my head. And start over. Even though it wouldnt matter to anyone but myself (which is really what counts). And I know im going against my own words but I now see that, that whole "people never change" thing is bullshit. People can actually change. I mean how can one person that goes from being a drugie to being completely sober, or someone going from being smart about their decisions and true to their friends, to ditching everyone they're close to and doing drugs to fit in, is not a person changing? Anyways, I just need to do this for me. I'm sick of letting go of amazing , big hearted people in my life.
I used to hate change, never understood it, but now I understand why it's important in life. I've realized I'm the reason to my tears rolling down my face. I'm the reason they have left me. I am at fault.
-All of this is just what I've realized witnessed and it's my perspective. Everyone has freedom of speech, right? So dont be offended and don't hold it against me if you don't agree of like anything of what I said. I listen and respect everyone elses opinons. I expect the same, don't cheat me out of my own freedom.
